My experience of Surrender

This journey with Of Owls and Stars started in November 2024. As I just came out of what now I know was a (pretty violent) Kundalini awakening in September, I had just finished reading Michael Singer’s The Surrender Experiment when I realized how much I had try to be in control of everything over the past few years. The awakening from September forced me to drop everything and stopped me in my tracks, and this book was just the reminder I needed that when I let life flow, everything unfolds as it should, or at least in a much easier way than when I try to force things. It’s much easier to surrender control and become curious about what life has to offer than to be so set on a path, an outcome, that I am missing out on my actual path and purpose.

On November 25th, 2024, I gave myself a full year to learn to surrender again. Surrender my wants, my needs, my dreams (which the Kundalini awakening destroyed anyway) and see where life wanted me to go and what it wanted out of me. Little did I know I was about to wake up to my true purpose, to my true self, and embark on a journey of discovering who I am underneath the lies, expectations, reflections, illusions, and all the other shiny things my ego likes to jiggle right in front of my eyes to distract me from truth.

Truth, my truth, being that I already have everything I need, whether it’s spiritually or physically. Spiritually, I have everything I need inside of me already, all the love, acceptance, joy, peace I am looking for, already exist inside of me, I just need to learn to find them and connect myself to it. Physically, I have a home, an income, food, clothing, my basics are covered and have always been. Why won’t my ego be happy with this? Well, it’s actually not about being happy with what I have and not wanting more, it’s about being conscious enough to understand that the extra stuff isn’t what is going to bring me peace or fulfillment, like I said, it’s already inside of me.

This truth is about the alchemical wedding of the ego and the soul, becoming fully human, realizing that I am the ego and I am the soul. And in the union of the two, I can become a fully fulfilled and functioning human being, or this is what I believe and am working on as I am writing these words.

Follow me on this journey of discovery, every week I share with you the ups and downs of my experience of surrender and everything I am learning about myself and the world along the way. I linked some of my favorite videos below, but feel free to explore my channel and find the topics and explorations that speaks the most to you!